Depression? Beat this..

somehwere around 4 pm...and i am sitting in office working on some quote..and the cell phone rings..
...
" hie.. howz you.. iwas in this part of town"
arrey no yaar.. i am stuck up till late..
"kya yaar.. we never get to meet.. take out some time.."
Tsk.. no baba..
".. aha you know..i had to tell you this really bad news...."
What..?
"..........."
what ..speak something..
"...you that ex of time.. the one i saw seeing in collge for a loong time and we broke off...."
what happened...

".. you know he committed Suicide...."

WHAT?????..like why ...
" ... he was depressed..."
No , i mean is this remotely related to you / your relation types..?
".......... well.. kind off yes.."

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I was staring at the monitor...all those 6 digit numbers in the twenty sheets opned in the xcel file getting completely wonky!!
i had litrally lost my breath for a second..

'... i had gone for his last rites in pathankot last week..."

WHAT!!!!! ( double what....) why?/
"... no yaar... her mom had called me ..he had left a suicide not ..that he is taking this decsision on his own.. and he could not take it any more..no-one has got anything to do with this......"

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" His mom wanted me to be there.. at least.... at the ending..."
..........

" One day before he courired this Box ...to me here....."
"... with all our old stuff... movie tics, gifts , cards, letters..stuff"
".. i have been crying for days and nites together...."
" mom flew in and is staying with me here..."

I was gaping/...
Consoled her..tried to sidetrack her...

god only knows how i finished my work..
mindz been pretty tizzy..

and ya sm one was askling about depression???

definations invited please

Challenges

People assume that challenges come with growing up. The same people assume that we as young adults dont have enough challenges in our life, just as we assume children dont have enough challenges in theirs.
I think what we forget is that the challenges always exist. When you're younger its something simpler like "what is a good excuse to skip school today" to "how do i avoid that bitchy girl/bully at school" or just peer pressure or being a laughingstock.
As young adults its career, education, results or not enough results.
As we grow older its our children and our family and retirement planning etc.
I think the challenges always exist and at the time that we face them, they seem surreal and HUGE but as we grow, the level of challenges also grow. I mean you cant expect the same level of obstacles in Level 1 of the game called life as you do in maybe Level 10?
What do u guys say?
Yea I know its a depressing idea it means that its never gonna get easier just harder

Are we Useful as a Species

Biologist E O Wilson, as well as other scientists, have studied the complex interdependence among various species in the biosphere. He found that every species makes a constructive contribution — small or great — to the ecology of the planet. For example, if vegetation — grasses and shrubs — decrease, herbivores suffer. And if the number of herbivores decrease, the carnivores are affected. Wilson found that only the human species does not contribute to the ecology. If we became extinct, there would hardly be any problems for other species or for the eco-logy. In fact, most ecological problems would be solved if humans became extinct. Arguably humans constitute the most intelligent species on the planet. Yet, science indicates that "intelligent" humans are nothing but a burden for the planet. Normally in a classroom the more intelligent a student, the more potential he has to make a positive contribution. Then why is it that the most intelligent species on the planet is making not a positive but a negative contribution to its biosphere?

The balance article available at below is on a different tangent …
http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/articleshow/msid-1435769,prtpage-1.cms

Words once uttered, cannot be taken back. Yet we utter them without a thought to the consequence.. why?